Wednesday, November 04, 2009
im suddenly feeling emo again.
dunno why.
i keep having the feeling that ppl look at me negatively
and im really letting that affect me.
for eg i think i seem anti-social to some ppl.
which i actually hope i dont but somehow i get the feeling
someone views me in this way.
after much thought.. i found out the root of all evil
Dota.
the reason why i did not do extremely well in EOY?
Dota.
the reason why im on rocky relationships with my parents?
Dota.
the reason why i can even raise my voice at my friends?
Dota
the reason why i have such a stinking temper(yes i know)
none other than Dota.
so ive been thinking, is Dota really that worth playing?
i mean for the 4 weeks leading to EOYs
i did not even touch Dota
and managed to survive
i guess i can as well live life without Dota
and live my life better still.
Dota is *i believe* the only reason why some of my friends dont really like me
i can tell. even i would hate myself if i was in any of my friends' shoes.
so i guess its less Dota for me.
and i hope this will lead me to become a better person,
a
better friend.
2:27 pm